run devil devil run run~

i'm supposed to be writing an entry.
a funny entry...
but i have no idea what to write of

40minutes

is how long i took
when i first attempt to do an "average" hardness of sudoku.
i actually did try doing it before but i kept giving up.
so this is the first time i sat there doing sudoku until i'm finally done with it...
shall practice more on that before moving on to HARD. xD

it also took me 5 - 8 times
of watching the mv or live performance of
"like the first time" by T-ara
to learn the chorus.
hee~

now when will i succeed in getting all ten a's?

dreams

some are so nice that they make us feel like in heaven
some scares the shit out of us
some are mysterious
some makes us cry
some are painful, literally...
some seem so real as though we are really facing it in real life
some are visions that will happen the next day without realising it; deja vu
some are... well just plain weird

whether we like it or not,
they'll always be with us
nobody really knows why or the reasons behind dreaming
or rather they are still researching about it...

dreaming can bring us to places we never tot of ever reaching
or probably showing us something that we can never think of or experience

dreams bring back memories too
both good and bad ones

but other than those, they mainly mean crap to us...

i've written about two to three essays that involves dreaming
it's simply cos u can jump from one scene to another without making much sense, or to describe as much hyperbolic as u can and there is no stopping cos dreams ARE unpredictable.

speaking of unpredictable
life too is unpredictable
can i say;

"dreams are like life, unpredictable yet we still have to go through it everyday, regardless." ?

some say dreams are expressions of wishes that didn't come true.

can i say;
"dreams are like life, unpredictable yet we still have to go through it everyday, regardless." ?

and this cos it's damnright cool! =D

just because eunhyuk sang~~
LOVES!!!!! *hearts*
*melts*

mask

a covering for all or part of the face, worn to conceal one's identity.

a devil and an angel
what happens when they both collide?

hear me cry!!

metaphorically.

mission cupcake 2

today i made two batches.
i have no idea why but i did
and this time the icing is a lil too wet
o.o
owh well
let's see what they say about it xD

seventeen cover girl search =P

here's a joke;
me and natasha had nothing better to do and we both signed up for
SEVENTEEN COVER GIRL SEARCH
not being vain okay?! just random =D
no biggie cos neither one of us got selected
HAHA
that's one joke for me definitely
keke~

midnight sun

this is a musical in korea where the main actress is Kim TaeYeon of SNSD.
because i'm such a big fan of snsd, and good thing for me that this is broadcasted in korea AND also lucky me for having soshified to translate it...
I WATCHED THE WHOLE THING!!!

it's a story where a girl who had a disease where she cannot be exposed to sunlight or else she'll die.
raised by her father alone
she spends her day in her house and comes out at night to sing
she fell in love with a surfer.
somehow they met and bla bla bla...
she had to die
bla bla bla
the part where she almost has to die was the most touching part
made me cry! T.T

ssfsubs3

the part where she was about to do her recording for her song that she composed
she was nervous
so she imagined her mom came to talk to her
the mom who she never seen before
ahk
somehow it made me tear up
='(

mission cupcake: ...

FAIL!

first timer la!
not like i'm a born genius also
so yeah

i said i wanted to bake cupcakes during holiday
so i smartly didnt check online for more details before proceeding to buy the ingredients
woops~
then when i bought the ingredients back then only i started asking regina for the recipe
and also checking online for the recipes
goodness. so damn many recipes out there i dunno which one to follow -.-
so yeah i followed reg's one...

it didn't turn out like SHIT.
which was a good thing
the icing i made wasn't wet enough
so my auntie say put more butter.
the icing taste more buttery-something i dont like.
i dread butter taste. xD
then i remembered it was that hard cos we needed to put the colouring after that so that it wouldnt be that hard later on.
LMAO
i also forgotten to put the icing AFTER the cupcake cools.
woops~

anyhow
my auntie was there guiding me throughout the whole thing
=P
proves that i CANNOT bake.

maybe i'll improve 2nd time round?
HAH~
see la~
=)

limitations.

i'd like to call humans stupid.
but i can't do that because we all have brains and this is why we shouldn't call each other stupid asses.
no matter how dumb a person can be, they still have brains and they aren't completely dumb.
who knows they may be smarter than u in things that u can't do.
everything has a limitation.

but why do we take for granted and abuse the proper use of the brain?
wait! that's not right, it's the brain that is controlling us, not us controlling the brain isn't it? o.o
maybe it's cos we are unable to develop the nerves in the brain properly, that is why we are somehow abusing it?
damnit. i'm confusing myself~! keke

and times, we get cheated by our own brains.
optical illusion is one example.
there are times where we think that we don't have anything at all but when the truth is that we have everything there is in the world.
yeap. confusing and frustrating.

this is where distractions take place!
*runs off to watch football~*

victory korea

this is kinda late huh?
korea 2-0 greece
DENG~!
well i came to this video after watching this like one month before the world cup...
now this song is like the most voted world cup song
heh~
i love super junior!
plus this is one of the songs where my hyuk has more singing parts other than just one small part all this while
AH~!

next match~
korea vs. argentina
korea hwaiting~!

ah jealousy...
can it really kill u?

vroomvroom~

hah~
today is the first day i've driven a car for real.
and it is a pain in the ass... well literally.
DUH. sitting there for two hours just driving... back also pain ah!
owh well.
now i know the pain of those ppl driving long distance now. =)

best part of it is that my engine didnt die once.
MY FIRST TIME DRIVING AND I DIN "sei 4" =D
just that i'm having problems with my turning and i get kinda confused when i come to a bump. xD
oh~
i still dunno when to change gear too
deng!

not too bad for a first timer eh?
but i was actually scared to start driving that's why it took me so long just to call the instructor to teach me. now my L license about to expire di... buwahhahaha

there is this one blardy thing i hate about learning driving though.
first of all u need to sit for 5 damn hours just to listen to some ppl to teach us road rules,
then, u have to take the exam, 42 out of 50 questions correct, you pass.
if fail? no sweat, just pay and do the exam again.
pass? next step, 6 hours more of crap.
ALL THE ABOVE already costs close to rm300.
-.-
then comes the driving lessons,
i had just paid rm200.
honestly i have no idea why does it have to be this expensive.
government is already collecting taxes everywhere, the cars already already expensive, so is the petrol.
doesn't make sense at all.
now that my L license is expired. goodness knows how much more money i have to pay.
urgh.
*someone give me proper explanation before i start complaining til the sky falls* =P

hah~
let's see how i fare in parking etc.
xD

i've always enjoyed playing car racing games whether on computer, gameboy, or at arcades.
hee~ =)
but i drive auto in those.
and! when in the game, u see a car or an obstacle infront of u, u just BANG into them.
so not used to it yet. o.o
=P
let's just hope i don't bang into anything! xD

teen love dramas

well pretty much actually.
haha =)
these are just a few of those that might happen during your teen years
such dramas actually exist in real life and not just in books.
after all stories are written by people, how on earth would they write if they never seen or experience these themselves?

situation one
boy: i've been in love with u ever since *bla bla bla*
girl: oh... and?
boy: can u be my girlfriend?
girl: okay.
for some period of time later. this depends on them actually.
boy: let's break up.
girl: why?
boy: cos i dont love u anymore.
girl: u bastard.

situation two
this is usually the aftermath of the first situation.
the girl moves on.
finds love in another guy.

situation three
also aftermath of first situation but the girl still holds hope in that boy still loving her. almost like lying to herself, she couldn't let go.
she may seem to be hating the boy until it seems like she could kill him, but she still does love him.

situation four
this is the boy's situation of the aftermath.
it's either he break the girl on purpose because something happened, or he simply didnt love her at all.

situation five
a guy or a girl secretly admires one guy/girl.
girl: omg! i got a text from him!!
friend: whoa! what did he say?!
girl: oh, just a normal "how u doing" but still... *hyperventilates*
it is either she has no guts to tell him that she likes him or it's a simple crush.
same goes to the guys.
guy: i wonder what she's doing.
friend: beats me.
symptoms that usually occur: love-sickness. always thinking about that one person almost every second, but never admitting or wanting to tell at all.

situation six
the guy/girl took bravery and confessed but the person responded coldly.
guy: i've been wanting to tell u, but i'm not expecting u to accept me, i just wanted to tell u i love u.
girl: okay.
then a series of things happen that makes the confessor get super angry/hate that person who he/she confessed to.

situation seven
similar to situation four but the confession was rejected nicely.
in a way not wanting to hurt the confessor, given whatever reasons, the truth or a lie. just not hurting the confessor.

situation eight
when they get together, they're serious about it, goodness knows how long that relationship is gonna last.

patience~!
if the story u were thinking of isn't here, just chill!
this is just some random post of what i see
besides, i'm just 17
got more things to learn
=)
well this is actually some summary of any story,
just pick one and start creating your own story.
lmao
super random.
o.o

rainbow~

shall we taint the white rose into different colours today?
=)

white rose
means innocence and purity, the start of a new beginning.
honestly, i never tot of the meaning but i have been finding everything related to this rose since i started changing my blog skin yesterday. sounds cool though. =)

black

black roses would mean the death of a relationship or idea. Some, however, suggest that black roses could symbolize rebirth or the beginning of something new.
i find black roses are mysterious. just like the colour black itself. there isnt a real black rose, just super dark red roses that look like black. the end of something but also the beginning of something new and unknown.

blue

traditionally signify a mystery, or attaining the impossible, or never ending quest for the impossible.
a calming, yet mysterious rose. though it may not be completely blue because these are pigmented, they still look damn right mysterious. =)

pink

shades of different pinks. symbolize grace, gentility and happiness and express appreciation and gratitude.
sincerity.a soft colour that brings peace to the mind. admiration. like but not love.

yellow

symbolize friendship and freedom.
sun, fun! makes me smile. =)

green

harmony, of opulence, of fertility.
reminds me of nature, and rare. hrm...

purple

fascination and adoration.
majestic. almost like it brings u to another world where u'll be forever happy. too much fairy tales i guess, but yeah. =)

orange

Just as the red rose means passion and the yellow rose means friendship, orange roses often mean a cross-over between these two emotions.
like sunset, it makes us want to look at it until it finally sets. captivating! ^^ sincere happiness.

red

passion and true love.
maybe they're too common to me since they're everywhere til i don't have an expression towards this rose. it tells a deep and true feeling though.

try googling the pictures for these coloured roses,
see what your first reaction towards each colour
then switch to another colour.
i'm not sure about u, but that is what i did to give my respond in the italic font.
black and white gave me the most impact.
i'm not sure why though...

this post took me an hour to complete.
i'm impressed myself.
o.o

rising above.
sounds easy, just like every other self motivational phrases,
they all sound and look easy but turns out to be something that seems out of reach.
but with the will, they are in fact, reachable.

i believe that the mind is non-existence.
it is an imaginary "thing" created by our mighty brain.
=)
when people say: "my heart says yes but my mind says no"
i'd laugh to myself.
seriously i would!
first of all, a heart does not speak, and again, mind is non-existence.
but in this situation, it is understood that that someone is indecisive.
this individual is having a hard time deciding which option to choose
because we have a choice in everything we do.
"i don't have a choice!!!"
is when i think that we are unable to think properly at that time
thus taking the option that was visible to us.

this is definitely a crap post.
xD

once confused, forever confused?
that is if u want to be confused forever, then that's true.

oh cool~ i remade my blog skin
i wonder why...

time to love

i forgotten the love of blogging!

hah
wonder what have i been thinking all this while until i cant say a single thing out on my blog at all
must have been insane.

oh!
i feel so left out lately
bleah~
but anyhow,
i think i screwed my going out chances di
o.o

i feel like complaining badly right here
but
yeah it wouldnt be a good thing to do
so
i shall not do it
=)

i found a new way to die
using air bubbles to pump them into my blood stream
and in 30seconds i'll be dead.
really? sounds damn right cool!
but wait. i think i still prefer scalpel. =D

escalators~

they are one heck of a good training.
=D

u know lagoon has like 3 sets of escalators?
the first one's quite short but the other two after that are longer
so from the bottom, me and yongjie had a race up the UP escalator.
blardy tiring. two straight sets of the long ones. lmao
like two idiots but they really made me exercise a lil =D
THEN!
the 2nd time we were going up
this time me and stefan were going up on the DOWN escalator
this one is triple the tiredness.
@@
HAH! u should try it when there's nobody on the opposite side of the escalator
cos it's one serious awesome training!
HEE~

<3

9th June 2010

Sunway Lagoon babeyh~ xD

10 of us,
edwin, stefan, oscar, timmy, zhen cong, pamela, william, yong jie, victoria, me!

i got a text telling me to be there by 10.
i was THERE by 9.50am
then i got a text from edwin telling me that PRINCE stefan wasn't ready. so i had to wait there alone for like twenty mins to half an hour. lol
then when we finally gathered, bought the tickets, then went for a brunch before entering lagoon.

first thing we did when we enter was to scream park.
blardy scream park, i was so freaking scared that i didnt even open my eyes once to see what was happening... i hold victoria's hand and grab edwin throughout the whole damn thing! ><
aigoo~
even though that place was cold and air conditioned, but i was sweating like mad! xD
there was one part where there was this "ghost" there trying to scare the daylight out of me... he/she kinda followed me but i pretended i din hear anything then i just continue closing my eyes
twice there was some scary sound behind me (i was behind that group of ppl i went with lol) i screamed like super scared scream xD
there was this part where we had to DUCK and run across some battlefield crap...
WITH my eyes closed and holding on the vicky in front of me, i just followed xD
pity yong jie cos the front 4 ppl left the remaining 4 of us at the back
he had to run not knowing exactly where to go
hee
not bad for a so-called-blind person to know that much was going on inside right?
hahaha
once we finished the whole damn thing, i just went out and sat there on the floor.
LMAO.
chicken.
we started talking about it. william fell down, oscar jumped. hah
if only i saw. but i was seriously too scared. o.o

then we went on kiddy rides~
buffalo bill was a complete retard. all of us were reaching out for the leaves to throw them on each other during the ride. xD
we were about to ride that 360 pirate ship thingy.
edwin stefan and yongjie, SCARED. kept finding excuses to skip the ride.
when we were sitting in the ride already, i almost wanted to strap myself in but the rain begin to rain heavier from the drizzles.
damnit.

so we went to the pool to swim/play
then while we were lining up to play some thingy in that pool, thunder strikes super loudly, then the lifeguard started with their whistle spree and ask us to leave the pool.
then i have no idea why, but those ppl started going towards the surfbeach...
it was BLARDY cold cos there was wind blowing around.
that made my lips turn purple xD
then the whole group migrated to another shelter thingy across the first one they were sheltering at...
yeah. i'm still wondering why they did that... lol

finally decided to go to scream park for the 2nd time.
HAH!
i didnt go in this time.
call me chicken if u want to. =P

then we went to sit that teacup spinning thing
lol they were spinning it madly... all 9 of us got dizzy after the ride xD
then we went to extreme park.
there was nothing much left to do cos it was already 5thirty.
so we got free paintball shots and we went for kayaking and swan boat pedalling
that swan was so hard to control. it wouldnt want to turn right when i tried steering it to the right xD

it was already past by the time we finished everything.
the toilet was packed. -.-
so yeah WE WERE THE LAST TO LEAVE LAGOON!!!
=D

then we had dinner in pyramid
walk around
arcade
the bowling alley was full so x dapat play
hang around til 9thirty to go for the movie
Bounty Hunter
was boring. =D

well it was an awesome day!
LOVES!!!

what would u do if your mind is poisoned?